Monday, June 13, 2005

 I got the job! I got the job! I got the job! *dances around* Yep, it only took them a month to get to it, but they finally told me that the job is mine. Sadly they still haven't told anyone else at work. So I've been keeping it to myself, which totally sucks. They're supposed to announce it tomorrow, so here's hoping. I can't wait to run out and get a massage on the company. And go to the dentist, that'll be awesome. Well, not awesome since I hate the dentist, but I think I probably have about 80 cavities so I really should go.

I just bought tickets to go see Turin Brakes in July. I can't wait to see them, I really love their cd's. I hope it'll be really good. I've also bought Coldplay tickets for August. And a Ben Folds/Rufus Wainwright show is coming up. Tickets go on sale tomorrow to see David Gray, I really can't wait for that one. He is so utterly amazing live. Concerts are back with a vengeance and I've missed them.

I did something a while back that I know One won't agree with... I joined Lavalife. For the record, I totally hate that I've become someone who has to look for a guy through a website. But I am so freaking sick of being single. I've been on my own for 6 years. It seems like everyone I know is getting married, or having babies, or is in some longterm relationship. I'm so sick of being the single friend. I don't want to be Bridget Jones (unless I get Darcy, then I'm totally willing to go that way). So I've thrown myself to the online wolves. There haven't been too many appealing options so far. There is however an older, tall lawyer that I've been talking to. We're trying to find a day to meet for lunch. I'll tell you how it goes.

I need to upload some music for all of you. There are some songs I've been really enjoying lately. Something to do when I'm not at work. Where I am a full time employee, wheeee!

Listening to: The Killers - Mister Brightside (stuck in my head)
"Destiny is calling me..."

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

 So the question on everyone's mind - did I get the job? And the answer my friends is that I have NO FREAKING CLUE. Yep, that's right, they haven't even bothered yet. I mean really, it's just getting insane. I just want to know. I want it put through. I want benefits, I want to go to the dentist, I want to get a massage and I want to only have to pay for %20 of whatever it costs. Is this too much to ask for? Really.

The whole situation is getting me down. Really, everything is getting me down lately. My doctor has upped my antidepressants, and he told me that if I'm not feeling better in a week then it's time to look into something else. I don't really want to do that. I've invested a lot of time with this, and they were working for a while. I'm not sure if my brain chemistry just got used to the drugs, or if it's the work/life stress that's making me feel worse. Who knows. I'm just ready for it to change.

The one good thing going on is the weather. It has been super fantastic here this week. Temperatures in the 30's (or 90's for you messed up Americans) lots of sun, I've been spending a lot of time in my parents pool. It's been gorgeous. Of course people are complaining that it's too hot. These are the same people that were complaining last month that it was too cold. Canadians. *shakes head* I've been trying to get up earlier so I have more of the day to enjoy. Plus, I think it's helpful for the depression. Better than laying in bed all day, enjoyable as it is. I've been getting up before 11am, which I know doesn't sound early. But since I work until midnight, I usually don't get to bed until around 3am. So it's easy to sleep until noon. Then I feel like I have no time before I have to head for work. An extra hour in the morning is nice. Plus, I can get a little more SG1 watching in.

I bought the new Coldplay and White Stripes albums on Tuesday. I'll be totally honest with you, I haven't listened to the White Stripes album at all. In fact, I'm not even that big on Blue Orchid. Future Shop was having a deal where you could get both albums for $20. I'll get around to listening to it eventually.

In the meantime, I've been listening to Coldplay in the car, and it's really growing on me. It definitely doesn't give me that punch in the stomache that I got the first time I listened to Parachutes, but it has it's moments.

I should probably do some work, huh? Maybe this is why they won't tell me about the job...

Listening to (in my head): Coldplay - Hardest Part
"The hardest part was letting go, not taking part..."

... posted by Steph at 6:18 PM ... ...