Monday, December 27, 2004

 I think I have a new year's resolution for this year. I don't usually do them because I think they are crap, and never work out. But I am going to try this year, because my resolution is to update this blog more. This once every two weeks thing is just lame, so I'm going to try to step up my game a bit. I think I can handle twice a week. It can't be that hard. Back in the day I used to update every single day. I should get back to it.

So yeah, Christmas this year was weird. Normally my parents, brothers and I have a big turkey dinner Christmas Eve, watch the Ref, go to bed. On Christmas we open presents, eat leftovers for brunch, and then head off to an extended family dinner. But this year my entire family came down with this virus that's going around town. The thing is evil, and I sure as hell didn't want it so I stayed away. Christmas Eve I just bummed around the house, ordered a pizza for dinner, and watched Love Actually. I think the weirdest part was waking up on Christmas Day and not being at home. That's the first time in my 24 years that I've been somewhere other than home on Christmas Day. But my family was feeling better by then, so me and my hand sanitizer went over to open presents. Then we were all sad about the lack of leftovers to have for lunch, so dad ended up making grilled cheese sandwiches. But then we had our nice big turkey dinner, so that was good.

I'm really happy that this year is almost over. That makes me kinda sad, because I've never felt that way about a year before. I generally don't think that much about it, but this year has just sucked, plain and simple. I can't wait to kick it out and start a fresh new one. I mean, I was sick for about 6 months this year. I've still got a bit of a cough, but it's no where near as bad as it was before. And the being sick thing just made me totally depressed. Last week I broke down and went to the doctor for some anti depressants. I was hoping I could get over it on my own, but that clearly wasn't happening. I've been seeing a councilor for about a month now, and she recommended the drugs. I'm just so sick of feeling down all the time, and the random crying jags that I just get on for no reason. It's not healthy. So hopefully the anti depressants will help.

And on that cheery note, I have to go and get ready for work. I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. Much love to you all.

Listening to: Richard Ashcroft - Precious Stone
"Gonna clean you up, make you feel like you know all the answers..."

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Thursday, December 16, 2004

 Yesterday I made dinner for my roommates. I made a lasagne from scratch and it turned out so well. I threw together a caesar salad too. We're sitting down, drinking some lovely wine and munching away when suddenly the smoke detector goes off. Seriously, we had smelled no smoke at all. J said "Is the oven still on or something?" and then K said in this little tiny voice "Wasn't there supposed to be garlic bread?" Ooops! Yeah, I had left the garlic bread in the oven under the broiler to crisp up. And it did get rather crispy. And black. And almost on fire. So that kinda ruined dinner a little bit. Plus, then I was totally craving garlic bread. Evil. I'm not letting that little disaster throw me off cooking though. This afternoon I'm going to make shortbread cookies. They are so good.

I got all my Christmas shopping done, and I also got my mom's birthday present as well. So now I am finished shopping for other people, and can concentrate on shopping for myself. Which is just the way I like it. Yesterday I bought myself a new lipgloss and eyeshadow from MAC because I adore their stuff. It's so much fun. I am addicted to makeup like it is crack. I also bought a lovely, super cheap on sale shirt from Mexx. Which was good since the non sale stuff is hella expensive.

Finally, I leave you with a picture of my crazy 80's Christmas tree. I love it, in all it's white plastic glory.


Listening to: The 88 - How Good it Can Be
"It's a known disease..."

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

 I didn't get the job. I am pissed. I pretty much thought I had this one in the bag. It just goes to show you that you can never forget that the bosses favourite will always win over you. So yeah, my manager gave the job to the guy he is in love with, even though I'm just as qualified and have been with the company longer. Fuck you very much.

There is a full time employee who's left on Long Term Disability, and I've been promised his full time hours. In fact, they've actually told me that if he doesn't come back from his leave that I have his job. But since there's still a year and a half left in his LTD, I'm not really holding my breath there. I feel like I'm putting my life on hold for the next year and a half. They're basically saying "hey, work here full time but without a pay raise or any benefits, and be happy about it! Oh, and we're going to give you the crappy shifts too, ok?" Eventually they're going to put me on a set Monday to Friday, three to midnight shift. Which would be awesome because I'd have my weekends off, and therefore could possibly get a life. I say eventually however, because so far this hasn't happened. The schedule is posted until the middle of January and I'm working every single weekend. I'm just afraid that I'll be sitting her, sometime in March of 2006 typing up a blog entry just like this one because I'll be in the exact same place. Only older. And still part time for a company that doesn't seem to appreciate it when I do things like stay at an accident scene in the rain until three am, or leave to shoot a fire in a town an hour away at 9:30 pm, get there, tape the viz, and get the tape back in time for the 11:30 news. Which I did tonight. So bah, enough of this crap it's just depressing me. Besides, maybe I'll have found my sugar daddy by then, and it will be goodbye work and hello martini lunches!

I was going to write more of the non bitter variety, but instead I'm going to go to bed.

Listening to: Coldplay - Shiver
"Just you try and stop me..."

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Wednesday, December 01, 2004

 So yeah, not really sure what happened to the last two weeks. I just didn't have anything of importance to say.

I had a job interview at my work today, for the same job I currently do, only full time. With a pay raise, benefits and everything. I think I did really well at the interview, but really who knows? So cross your fingers for me, I could really use this job. Besides the whole benefits thing, I'd also be working a Monday to Friday shift, which means I'd have weekends off! Like a normal person! I could actually go out and get a life. Can you imagine?

I've been listening to some really random music lately... a lot of stuff from 2001. Travis, some Remy Zero. I'd forgotten how good the Ours album Distorted Lullabies is. They put out another album, but I never listened to it... I wonder if it was any good. Anybody? I remember Ours were going to be "the next big thing" but then the Strokes came along and they were the next big thing. Poor Ours.

Seriously guys, I've got nothing... Except for some mild boy stories which I will lock up on the LJ later. Ask me some random questions or something and I'll answer them. Because this is a rather poverty post.

Listening to: Home Movies
"you're being sarcastic, aren't you?"
"NO."
"Wait, that was sarcastic, right?"

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